Friday, January 9, 2009

Lost Voice

I feel that I have lost my voice.
Lost my footing and my anchor.
I no longer know who I am or what I want in life.
Everything has been scripted until now.
It's a quarter-life crisis.
My bff's leaving for boot camp in a few weeks and I am so saddened by it. I love him and not being able to talk to him for 6 months will prove to be quite trying. He's my wing man, my biggest critic, and my best applauder. Things have been incredibly rough for the last few months, but we managed.

As I get older, life is catching up with me. I no longer live in my bubble,no longer shielded from the world. I know what I have to do and what must be done. Yet, I am unsettled.

Right now, I just feel lost. Lost.

2 comments:

TNC said...

Sometimes we have to be lost in order to find our way back. It is through these journeys that we find out more about ourselves, our strengths, weaknesses, limits and (dis)beliefs. Sometimes, we may even find our true calling through the rough roads.

Good luck finding your way. Take the wheel and go for it.

John Halcyon von Rothschild said...

thnx for the advice :) i should really take life as it unfolds...